trust

i give a damn about life these days , have been bruised so many times tht i hav lost count . bob dylan rightly had said' ALL THE TRUTH IN THE WORLD ADDS UP TO ONE BIG LIE" it is so fuckin true. i mean i dnt see the slightest or vagueest of honesty or transparency in relationships . man i m sick n tired of this on going process. how many times am i going to fall for fake ppl who r just liars and fakes. i mean is there no end to it ? i m feeling lonely n sad again , well i do feel tht way from time to time . will have to listen to JIM . i think he wud be able to guide me . i feel like pukin .........

the doors - reinvented

i can hear jim calling to me at night.i can feel his presence besides me all the time , guiding me thru the rough times , times wen i have been neglected , dejected n he is there ....nt to console me , but tell me that life is a bitch , just stand up for wat i believe and give a fuck abt the ppl who dont understand me or intimidate any way.he tells me not to be sorry for anything , to tell women who have used me in their own small or big ways ... i dont care a damn and tht they are fucking whores .he tells me not to cry anymore wen i m sad . i listen to his voice every night , wen i hear his voice on the tape i feel like i m listening to him live and that he is performing for me , just me and no one else . he asks me to break on through to the other side . i know , i know wat he really means by it . he was hurt , but never gave up , i can feel wat he must have felt like being dejected n love lost forever , he deserved unconditional love which he seemed to have kept on searching all his life just like me .i am here for u jim , n i know how u must keep on fighting this fucking piece of shit called society . i have become a man now , i was apussy before by mkng myself miserable by tryn to please others , i dont do it now , n its all because of u . i do believe that not only did god sing but he roamed the stage half naked , with the microphone clasped in his hand and poetry in his mind . thank you for showing the way to the next whisky bar my love .